I don't love him as much as I love Jackie. Nor do I care about him as much as I care about Elcar or more, importantly, as much as I love my brothers.
But I do care about him.
For the most part, he always is happy to see me. He may not talk a lot but he always seems like he's trying to see the good in everything and because of that, I respect him that much more. I've only been mad at him twice in the whole time that I've known him (including the times we were just friends). He enjoys to hear me laugh, I enjoy to see him smile. He catches me watching him sometimes but that is only because I'm so interested into what he has to say. I make him talk because what he says matters to me.
The future is indefinite to me, but I know now that no matter where I go, no matter if we're together or just friends, Alex Castillo will remain in my life. I'll try hard to keep him there.
