Saturday, July 3, 2010

A Series of Unfortunate Events

May 25, 1966
November 14, 1972

April 25, 1990
August 2, 1990
March 1990
May 26, 1993
May 27, 1993

Find me here
And speak to me
I want to feel You
I need to hear You
You are the light
That's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

You calm the storms
And You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart
When You take my breath away
Would You take me in take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Cause You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything, everything


My perception of Love is so fucked up.
I heard this song only yesterday and it hit me so weird.
Mainly because it hits me in a way I'm absolutely certain no one else feels.
I don't think of a person whose broken my heart or shit like that, I just think of the headaches that Love must bring to people. I have so many questions, so much confusion pops into my head. This isn't like Calculus or any other subject where I know if I use certain strategies, it'll be easy. I can't master this whole thing. It confuses me so much, that this is the only problem I refuse to solve. I don't want to solve it. The answers are no good. Frustration kicks in and then I get mad.

Old habits die hard.