Life Unexpected

Holy shit.

No puede ser.

But it is..

I am happy.

And feeling a lot like love.

Ay Dios.

Realization

"What do I say?" 

You should never get to close to someone. It is almost like receiving a house that you have on rent. You feel so comfortable and so relaxed in such a confined area, that you almost forgot the realization that this area is not yours. That if you don't provide the right amount of contribution, you'll lose it and have to find a new area of comfort. And really...who wants to go through so much trouble constantly finding new comforts? Better to just remain homeless.

Ugh..People always leave. -_-

Odd

"Amy, why are you always the sober one?"

I laughed when he said that, but that question made me get locked up in my head for a few minutes. 

It's been nearly nine months since I last got drunk. It's been such a long time, I can't even remember what it's like to feel drunk. Needless to say, it's not something that I'm scared of. I think it would actually be pretty comical for others and myself to see me drunk. But I know that I'll approach drinking differently since the last time I was drunk and because of that, I feel that I have approached everything else differently for that matter.

My life has completely changed since that last drinking incident. It went from completely confused and emotionally retarded to..well, still emotionally retarded, but not so much confused. I had a feeling of self-pride as I walked yesterday. 

I feel like I'm finding a balance about everything. 

Now all I have to learn to do is be a little bit more compassionate..but then again...that's an entirely different story.